Heart for the Journey

Over the past month since losing my job, I've really been struggling with some larger decisions that are in front of me. As I said in my first blog post, I was planning to move to Colorado and had I not quit/lost my job, I would have already made the move within the last week or so. I know that's where I'm supposed to go, but I hate not knowing WHEN I should take that step now that the original plan has changed. I don't want to move too soon and end up in a situation where I have no job, no money, no family around to help, but at the same time, I need to find a job ASAP and if I'm going to be in SD longer than another month or two, I have to find something here to pay the bills. I've been praying and asking God for direction and timing, but do you ever have those moments where you feel like God isn't speaking and you don't even know if He's listening? My aunts church put on an Easter play and they touched on this subject; the struggle with not hearin...

Not many people who know me are aware that my little brother is an addict. Most know that he's gotten into trouble and loves to party, but I don't think anyone would automatically jump to the conclusion that he's an addict. I think there is a stigma associated with that word and no one ever thinks that their loved one or someone they know could ever be an addict. We associate that word with the dark alley in the bad part of town or the homeless person yelling gibberish on the side of the road, maybe some think that only gangsters and prostitutes could be addicts, but from what I've seen and encountered with my little brother, it's the neighbor next door, it's the successful business owner, it's the single soccer mom, it's the high school kid who had a full ride scholarship to college...addiction doesn't care who you are or what you look like, it sneaks in and destroys you from the inside out. Addiction robs you of having a good life, it robs you of h...

I had a pretty rough 2015 and was really hoping for 2016 to be better, but these first couple of months haven't been any easier. I was in a minor car accident In December that I'm still dealing with, I had been so stressed at work that I developed a monstrous ulcer in my mouth that prevented me from eating real food for almost 2 weeks, and then I got really sick on top of everything else. While it looks like the world is against me, I've actually experienced something pretty amazing that has altered the direction of my current situation and near future. Bare with me as I take you the long way... I've always been the type of person to fake a smile and say everything is just fine because I'd rather people not know what kinda hot mess I am lol Over the past 6 months or so I have made some pretty radical changes in my life; I started going to church again, I'm working on getting rid of bad habits and developing healthier ones, I've pulled away from some relatio...