Heart for the Journey

Something really great happened last week after my previous post. My little brother got the call that there was a bed open for him in rehab and he took it! He cancelled his trip to Alaska with his dad and walked away from his job so he could get the help he needs. After so many tears and prayers, it finally happened and I couldn't be happier! I've been able to visit him and he told me that he's learning so much and really feels that this will help him get his life on track and headed down a successful path for the future...melts my heart. I think I've set my mind on relocating back to Sacramento. I know I said that I felt CO is where I'm meant to go, but after my plan to move there was turned upside down in a matter of days, I'm not sure that's where I'm meant to be for this moment in my life. I do think that I will eventually get there, but not right now. I want to be closer to family and living in CO, it's just going to be at a later time. I...

It's always so crazy to me how much life can change in just a matter of days. Time just flies by and decisions are made on a minute by minute basis and can totally change the direction of your life. My brother who's been staying with me until he got called into rehab made the decision to forgo an inpatient program. My heart broke big time! While he continues to make the decision to steer clear of drugs, I am still so worried about him. The one thing I wanted for him through this program was to get counseling and learn to recognize his red flags/triggers that would lead him to succumb to drug use again. He has so many issues from childhood and I had hoped he'd be able to deal with some of that to help him realize why he has chosen drugs all these years to mask the heartache and not give a rip about himself. All I can do right now is pray that he continues to make better decisions and doesn't go back to that lifestyle, but part of me also knows that when someone is we...